Going to my head

Sometimes I'm not sure why I get things into my head that are not entirely true. I guess I am easily fooled or taken by people who are nice to me and misconstrue their niceness. My ego has totally taken a dump because I pride myself on being a good judge of character. This time I'm sure I will never know, but at least I tried. I put myself out there, am remaining open, but as my past dictates, I'm pretty certain I'm being dismissed non-verbally. Again. If it walks like a duck and quacks like a duck, then ____. I've given a nudge and that's really all I can do. Ball in the other court, ready when you are, tit for tat, whatever cliche you want to say. I'll be around even if you "aren't much".

Welcome back solitude, I remember you well. I dislike you, but at least you are comfortable and predictable.